In June of 2014 I created Buff Beads. It was after a late night of drinking and dancing in the city. I awoke feeling gross, anxious and foggy.
Through breakfast and while walking around Vancouver, my mind was a hustle of thoughts and words, creating a slow panic in my body. I went through the previous nights actions skimming for anything that could be causing this feeling. I needlessly went through conversations over and over again, creating more discomfort in my body.
In and out of shops we wandered as I tried on clothes and politely spoke to others. Meanwhile an internal battle was raging. I was fighting the insults that were flying at me. I was weak, but I knew from my experience four months before, that self-respect and self-talk were the first steps to self-love.
We found ourselves in the gift shop of Dr. Sun Ya-Sen’s Chinese Garden. There I found some beads. They were simple, 16mm round, earth green beads with the image of Buddha stamped on them.
As I was purchasing them, the woman behind the counter asked “Are you a Buddhist?” I said “No, but I really enjoy the message.” She smiled knowingland said “Me too.”
We continued on our self guided city tour, as the internal voices continued their attack through my mental fog. Ancient memories and criticism resumed as did my counter strike. I found that this time I was making headway. I was playing with the beads in my hand. Each bead through my fingers was another self-compliment. My concentration was no longer on the words that flew at me but on the words I was giving back. I found that with these words I said to myself, I was feeling more powerful. At one point I stopped and thought….I’m friggin’ BUFFING myself.
This idea sent chills through my body and after hours of torturing myself I shared with David my inner turmoil and my discovery.
“BUFF BEADS, DAVID!” I was so excited. I made plans immediately to find a local bead shop and make my boy Josh some. My sister, my mom, my sick neighbor, my stressed out friend…so many people I thought would benefit from a simple string of bead.
By infusing into the beads the idea that I was worthy and powerful, they consistently would remind me of such. Kicking me out of whatever mindless thought I’m in and chucking me into the present moment where there’s nothing but love and peace. Where I can form and control the words I say to myself, granting more power.
Even after two years I am still excited about this idea. I get a tingle when I randomly come across you guys wearing Buff Beads. Because I know, that every time you look at them, you are reminded of your power, your worth and of how incredibly loved and beautiful you are. I know that you are aware of the words you say to yourself and that kindness and compassion prevail always. Thank you all for your support and thank you for spreading the importance of self-love.[imageframe lightbox=”no” gallery_id=”” lightbox_image=”” style_type=”none” hover_type=”none” bordercolor=”” bordersize=”0px” borderradius=”0″ stylecolor=”” align=”center” link=”http://buffbeads.ca/” linktarget=”_blank” animation_type=”fade” animation_direction=”down” animation_speed=”0.1″ animation_offset=”” hide_on_mobile=”no” class=”” id=””] [/imageframe]